Divine timing: “Direction is more important than speed…
…many are going nowhere — fast.”
Isn’t relativity of Time truly an amazing thing? Do you know that Time is perceived differently on other planets?
Here’s an example:
“Jupiter orbits the Sun at an average distance (semi-major axis) of 778,299,000 km (5.2 AU), ranging from 740,550,000 km (4.95 AU) at perihelion and 816,040,000 km (5.455 AU) at aphelion. At this distance, Jupiter takes 11.8618 Earth years to complete a single orbit of the Sun. In other words, a single Jovian year lasts the equivalent of 4,332.59 Earth days.”
You now realise that perception of Time is different in Jupiter, alike so many other places in our Universe. But there’s yet another story that was so beautifully written, that I would like to share with you before we continue, that has been so true and comforting to me. There’s also a purpose with taking a detour, which will make more sense as we go on.
Soooo….
“An elephant and a dog became pregnant at same time. Three months down the line the dog gave birth to six puppies. Six months later the dog was pregnant again, and nine months on it gave birth to another dozen puppies. The pattern continued. On the eighteenth month the dog approached the elephant questioning, “Are you sure that you are pregnant? We became pregnant on the same date, I have given birth three times to a dozen puppies and they are now grown to become big dogs, yet you are still pregnant. What’s going on?”._ The elephant replied, “There is something I want you to understand. What I am carrying is not a puppy but an elephant. I only give birth to one in two years. When my baby hits the ground, the earth feels it. When my baby crosses the road, human beings stop and watch in admiration, what I carry draws attention. So what I’m carrying is mighty and great.” Don’t lose faith when you see others receive answers to their prayers. Don’t be envious of others testimony. If you haven’t received your own blessings, don’t despair. Say to yourself “My time is coming, and when it hits the surface of the earth, people shall yield in admiration.”
Me, I am a late bloomer, so God only knows how Time in my realm works. In some of my Life’s stages, this felt really devastating. The uncertainty. What I’ve learned was, that people have their own blooming season, just like pretty much everything else in nature. I’ve also learned that our growth isn’t about instant gratification, isn’t about what we can always perceive as our growth or what we expect it to be, but almost always it’s about slow and yet, consistent progress that provides long term results.
I’ve learned that it’s silly to expect other people’s timing to be same as my own and in process… i no longer had to compare myself to other people either. I no longer have to feel bad about being in a different stage in my own life, and as it turned out — people who look mostly like they had their life together, were just putting on a show of success, while they were really struggling behind the scenes. I’ve lost all the pressure and expectations of myself, so that I could finally be the most authentic version of myself, uncertainty, struggles and all.
Knowing you have the potential of doing anything and everything you set your mind to, well…it puts you in a place of mindfulness about things that matter most. It isn’t easy in the beginning of something.
The responsibility I had for my life was different from what was expected of me. My responsibility started with being truthful and authentic, so that I could create the life of meaning, and hopefully of an original legacy that will surpass any time frame i was given to live in. My responsibility and self reliance started with commitments I’ve made to myself, to think for myself, to pave my own path, to have courage to defy the standards everyone else was complying to. I had more power behind the scenes, that anyone else had in public. Publicly, it seemed like my life was falling apart.
I liked a quote I’ve read somewhere about Saturn influence in Astrology, since Saturn is known to delay things (and for a good purpose), and the quote more or less said: “I’ve worked for 25 years, only to become and overnight success.”
For those who dig into astrology Saturn is also known as the Time Lord.It’s also planet that governs Karma, and the Authority. It can either establish you as an Authority or tear you down as false Authority, when you don’t stick to your integrity and commitments. It doesn’t matter how much effort you put into something if you’re doing the wrong thing or for the wrong reasons. Saturn is always serious business. Put in the work and it will reward you beyond belief, with long lasting blessings. One of the reasons Saturn delays the rewards, is to make sure you’re up for the task. Surely, you can’t enter an operating room with a butter knife?
But here’s the catch — and perhaps it affects me specifically as a Saturn in Sagittarius generation, it is non negotiable requirement for you to be True to yourself. Without this level of integrity, if we’re real about it, you can’t really stick to your commitments. Because you don’t know what they are. So before you raise your sails, you have to be really sure about your chosen direction, know where you’re going and why.
I was, at times, very impatient, restless. Having the pressure of external environment was only helpful in giving me a reference, a clearer sense of direction and understanding of who I authentically was. Also, who I was not. External pressure was always an expression of someone’s anxious mind wanting to impose their own version of reality, and it was always short sighted, because judgements they’ve made were based on incomplete information. I’ve also learned is that labelling something was highly misleading from what was in fact, going on.
No one knew how much I struggled with pressure. You know that thing that people do, telling you to hurry up while you’re relieving yourself in the bathroom? It’s kinda how it felt. It wasn’t going to make things happen faster, it was just a hell lot of noise and awfully annoying. Can you imagine yelling at your newborn child to fast forward into getting their college degree? Does it make any difference? You gain nothing with imposing your version of reality, nor your sense of timing onto others. Or the opposite.
I was always very deliberate. I know that many people saw me as procrastinating or lazy, but i never really had an issue with doing things that i was passionate about, in fact quite the opposite. In so many ways I was overly responsible and a perfectionist workaholic. My high expectations of myself were often a point of undoing, because I've had no patience to go through the process without being frustrated.
Being inside of the process turned out to be just the relief I needed. I’ve set results aside. I’ve set expectations aside. But the thing i had to set aside the most, was identifying myself with what people projected at me. The fact that they didn’t understand my journey, or myself, that they were on the outside looking in — and usually through their own filters, made me take a closer look at myself. Was I really what they saw in me?
Astrology really helped me with finding answers. The reason why I had to show you the elephant story, was to give you an idea and as a reminder, that everything in nature has its own course. But looking inside of myself, and my own models of behaviour helped with finding a foundation of my own reality and my own truth, because I truly believe that the qualities and traits we manifest in one area will also be manifested in other areas too.
As to say, you can’t be reliable in some ways and unreliable in others. Or thorough. Or analytical. To name a few.
But you still have to understand what works best for your energetic make-up. There’s no such thing as the one-size-fits-all approach. My responsibility includes doing what is best for my life, and knowing that it’s only when I am authentic, and acting accordingly with my own value system and moral compass, that I can truly benefit anyone else.
You too, can follow through your own pace, and still make it right on time.
