Money, Conscience and Karma: The Wheel of Pleasure

Does our pleasure come with a guilty conscience?

People who prefer doing things “for free” believe that it gives them freedom, because they inherently feel like they are not free — as their freedom depends on — is restricted with money. Which is not too different from people who believe that their freedom is provided by money, it’s a different cage, but a cage all the same.

They want to “be rid of it” as an “itch they can’t scratch” because they believe that is the source of their imprisonment. When in fact, the real source of their imprisonment is their own feeling of confinement, their restricting thought that money is a part of a toxic culture.

Their condemnation becomes their imprisonment. They contaminate a pure energy, and the contamination reflects back.

Projections provide meaning, turning into a loop,turning into experience.

People who choose to believe in nobility of “free of charge” are equally as dependent on money as those who rely on money to provide them value, simply because it provides them value nonetheless. Value of superiority, of higher moral ground, of false testimony of freedom.

When in fact, the more likely Truth, is that they can’t trust themselves to handle the responsibility required to manage their resources — and the more resource, the higher responsibility. This is a subconscious fear of being accounted for what they’ve been accounted with.

If one only feels free in absence of something, is one really free? And if one is really free, does one require proof of one’s freedom?

Free of charge means “no exchange” and no exchange — means no current, no flow, no movement. This goes back to the Law of Action and Reaction, also known as the Law of Karma — the law of consequence.

If we think of this in terms of freedom and imprisonment, we come to understand that our choices and actions are married to the consequences of their own. We continuously produce what we’re so desperately trying to avoid.

The payment!

And what about expressions we use in terms of vindication? “I’ll make you pay for it!” or “You will pay for it!” We speak of restoration of balance in a very negative light. This is our synonym for Karma, and being that Karma is nasty bitch, that comes to bite you when you least expect it.

May this be the reason that we want to be free of charges?

In essence this means that either we don’t believe what we’re buying into a positive experience, or in case of re-compensation, that it is benevolent. Now, if we are to expect malice from repayment addressed to our own account, it also has to imply that we don’t fully believe in the goodness of the doing we’re being re-compensated for. Why else should repayment feel like punishment instead of a reward?

This is why money becomes such a terrible obstacle to our own conscience. We want to act without accountability, possibly even without integrity and without ever having to face the consequences of our own poor judgement and decisions. At the very least, we are driven by a subconscious fear that we don’t know right from wrong and it’s the same as not knowing what awaits us at the end of our lives, be it Heaven or Hell. Our entire lives resemble a walk through a minefield — blindfolded, because we don’t really know.

But why is balance portrayed as negative? Even the term balance, was associated with out bank account, or our credit.

When has credit become associated with blame?

“Taking credit for what you’ve done” has rarely been used to imply, making oneself accountable for good deeds, and so it’s never been synonymous for our personal and creative power.

Our joy is not often synonymous for high moral standards, and neither is our pleasure. We associate pleasure with impurity of thoughts or intentions, even sexually we “like it dirty”. We associate our desire with something of lower nature, primal — as if primal itself was not divine. We praise ourselves on our ability to “rise above” and that usually means cold intelligence, deprived of every sensual experience of the heart or the body.

We try so hard to disengage from the movement of life, the cycle of life, for sake of preservation, and that would mean making all the right and benevolent choices, avoiding all impurities, being the good child — so that we would not suffer from the consequences, and not face the punishment.

But, the joke is on us, because that same fear of punishment draws us into a life of punishment — life of deprivation, of disconnection from multiple sources of joy and pleasure, and from an exchange.

We only make an exchange under certain terms, and with the main term of not taking any risk. We prefer life a certain way. so we avoid contrast. And in that, we avoid Wholeness.

Our life resembles a kids swing on an abandoned playground.